The IB Program

In IB terms, today's Open House was for "the CP kids" because we have our own Open House next month. I don't understand why the IB Program strives to erroneously distinguish themselves from the rest of the population at Southside. Are we REALLY celebrating diversity when we want our own Open House and exclude the rest of the school's population because they aren't on the IB track? Are we REALLY united in learning when we act like the Certificate track (which serves as middle ground) doesn't exist? I don't understand why we glorify the IB Diploma when it seems a lot more logical to go for Certificate, since 90% of IB kids are staying within the US. I also don't understand the huge gap between Diploma and Certificate. Or how people see the MYP as a good thing for everyone. 

Today I filled out the most savage survey about the MYP to finalize the debate on whether or not we should keep such a thing. No. And I love it how the only time IB wants to act like they actually care about "the CP kids" is when they are all required to complete a giant essay of some sort during their sophomore year. Not everyone lives in a two story house with a white picket fence and a green lawn; many kids that come to high school just want to graduate. They don't want to go to college, and there is nothing we can do to change their mindset because of the lack of educational support at home. Stop thinking that we all come into high school with an AB average, and stop forcing programs on kids who barely have the effort to pass classes. Stop ignoring the fact that there will continue to be "that generation" of kids who go straight into the workforce and live the rest of their lives working minimum wage jobs. Forcing more graduation-irrelevant work on these kids will create a mental block on their education; increasing the dropout rates in high school. 

In addition to that survey, there was a nice section about the Diploma Program, but it failed to even ask questions about the Certificate Program and how it actually exists. There's such a huge gap between those two that it seems illogical to claim that you were in the IB Program, regardless of whether you took 7 IB courses in addition to 150 CAS hours or just 3 IB classes and an infinite amount of free periods. I also love it how you threaten magnet kids to go for Diploma or you'll send them to their zoned schools. Stop terrorizing the freshmen; if you want more people to do the Diploma, start telling the whole truth about it; don't just leave the argument one-sided. Many people drop from Diploma to Certificate because of the continual lying that you do over the course of three years, and that ends up hurting your statistics (since we're all nothing but numbers). 

On that note, stop keeping the Certificate Program all hush-hush. The Certificate Program is the basis of the blending and unification of our school because it allows the cross over between "the CP kids" and "the IB kids." The fact that you glorify IB kids over zoned kids is revolting; the students are put in that mindset too (see previous rants for exhibits A-C). You treat "the CP kids" like they are the dumbest apes in the world, yet you try to use them as a means of gaining more percentages of people in the IB Program through the MYP. And judging people based on their appearance or everyday language is just wrong; you can't assume that they're not going for Diploma because of the way they may present themselves. You can't just assume that they'll be happy with their junior year schedule that's set up for a Certificate Candidate. 

I understand that the IB Program is a separate education system from regular high school education, but what I don't approve of is the way it is carried out like it is the most superior education system in the history of education. Instead of priding yourself on what you already boast about, start opening the door to the middle ground; allow kids to go for Certificate without intimidating them. Allow zoned kids to participate in the IB Program by choice, not by force. Stop believing that we will eradicate those students who drop out and let their lives fall apart; they will always be there unless the educational support at home is provided from an early education, not just during high school. We don't live in a Utopian society, and trying to make the IB Program just that will never work. 

Call to Jesus Session: Juniors

It's about time this blogpost happened. Because your maturity level is humiliating, since you still choose to act like a bunch of freshmen. So first and foremost, let's go back to Infest and boy did you piss me off. You're juniors, so the idea of seniority doesn't apply to your, nor does it exist. If we (members of the crew) tell you to move or direct you elsewhere, shut up and do it. You have absolutely no authority in talking back to the stage manager, insisting that you need to see other people's shows. No, you don't. It's not like 30 people will post the act on Facebook a day later. And it was your 3rd year doing Infest and you suddenly decide that you belong on stage because a new stage manager came. If she can't deal with you, I will. And it's certainly not going to be fun because it's not even my job to do that. You just don't listen. At all. There's no need to catch an attitude because someone told you to move and you knew you didn't belong there. Like no, I'm going to need for you to grow up.

Number two. It's the listening thing again, you filthy hogs. Everyday when you walk into APUSH, you sit down and get to answering the questions on the board even before the bell rings, but when you go to Psych, you shout across the room, stand around, catch attitudes with people, and oh I don't know, NOT LISTEN. Why do you act differently in different classes? Oh that's right, it's because you sit with your nice little cult and talk the entire period. MY BAD. Why should I get punished with you, when I actually got myself settled and ready to go? Why should I get yelled at everyday when you're the one who decides to be inconsiderate everyday? Why do you catch an attitude with a student who's trying to settle the class down when you know that the teacher is going to say the same exact thing? Because that's EXTREMELY disrespectful. Especially today. When he decided to take the courage to take the leadership position to help us finish our notes and then you rudely decided to go bombard him with your phones to take pictures of it because you felt that the latest gossip was more important than the education of your classmates. By bombarding him, you told him that you didn't want to listen to him because you wanted to talk to your friends for the entire class period. He took the time to help you, but you clearly decided to reject it. And it's been a week long thing with the picture taking. Your dad wasn't a glass maker, you're blocking the freaking board. Which means that I can't copy down my notes because the armada of lazy procrastinating hogs decided to blockade the information I needed. Thanks, I appreciate your consideration.

OH WAIT. And then you want to brag about procrastinating (see previous blog post since it hasn't freaking changed). I have no sympathy for you because you only got an hour of sleep last night. Boo hoo, should've known that time doesn't stop for you, idiot. You compete for the position of "who is the biggest procrastinator" and frankly all of you have failed at outdoing one another in your stupid race. Then I only matter to you when you want to talk about how stressed you are.

And then to your little cults. MY GOD am I tired of it. You've literally been in the same group since freshman year, you still stab each other behind each other's backs, you still gossip about others not in your cult, and you blatantly state events that sound like fun, but I'm not even invited to a single one.
Update on Halloween, Christmas, New Year's, 4th of July, and other party invites in high school: 0.
And as an outcast, I know you talk about me behind my back, especially when it comes to these rants, and I'm glad you acknowledge how selfish and arrogant you are. You choose one person in your cult, and treat them like they are the center of your world. You act as if you'll die if drama doesn't exist. Like seriously, why is there already drama on an event created this week and it's about A DAMN DINNER. And if you think you're going to die because you need to get over yourself, please do. I see people dragged into your cults because they changed who they were just to "fit in". I see how different you are outside of it and I see how tolerable you are outside of the circle. No one is a better person in a clique, and you sure as hell aren't a good liar (work on your fake side, you piece of trash). So point being: get your head out of your ass and look at yourself and who you hang out with. BREAK THE CLIQUE. None of you belong in that. And grow up, because you are a junior in high school. You'll never make it in the real world if you can't get out of your cult. They won't be there for you after you graduate; wishful thinking.

And to those whose lives revolve around things that aren't for you: stop. No one cares politics because it's dumb anyway; leave it to the politicians. It's not like you can vote this year anyway, so why does it matter to you on who gets elected and who doesn't? Your life literally revolves around arguing with others and forcing them to agree to your point. No, I will not agree with you and dumb politics and no, you will not force spoons down people's throats. I also don't care about what celebrity did what to who. I have my own life to create and live, so I have no interest in trying to be someone else. They're a terrible role model anyway. Maybe it's time you stopped and wrote your own story, since you wasted 16 years of it.

Overall, the main lesson here is to get your lives together or I will definitely call you out on my next rant (it's not like it matters since you've been talking about me behind my back for 3 consecutive years anyway). And to be freaking respectful. Like how hard could it possibly be to do something you know you should've done? To be smart about who you hang out with, and to look at yourself. Because the people I see are those who don't deserve to be in this world. I'm not asking for your sympathy because I've been excluded by 90% of you guys, but I am asking for you to open your blind little eyes. Because you never know if someone will disappear the next day. Don't worry about me, I know I have a future ahead of me. But none of you know who was almost taken away from us, and most of you all didn't seem to even care. You'd think differently if that person was you.  

Positivity and Encouragement

Well my blog used to be filled with a bunch of rants, but now I'm not really feeling that vibe anymore. Sure, the rants are going to be posted, but I figured that positivity is something people would rather read. As I looked through the yearbook from last year, I came to realize many things. I realized that even if you hated how you looked two months ago, you'll grow to appreciate how beautiful you were. I realized that my dream of being on a sports team and playing volleyball actually happened. I realized that I can conquer my doubts, and show others that I am not going to stay on the ground. I realized that doing something different showed another side of me; a side that can help me be the best that I can be. But the most important thing I learned was that I matter in this world, and that I can help others out with one small project at a time.

The Internet

I'm so tired of humanity. All I see on Instagram are selfies and betrayal. All I see on Facebook are "heartfelt" birthday posts and cheap forms of entertainment. So I turn to my blog. Where only a small handful of people read my posts. Where my viewpoints are rashly thrown down in an electronic post, permanently documented on the internet. I see now that social media sites are nothing but a giant waste of life. They create forms of hatred and "love" that shouldn't exist. They create a species of gullible and weak people who rely on the internet to "be who they are". It creates a space to privately trash someone's life, and a space to think you're safe. It creates a false sense of friendship. It makes people blow things out of proportion and to jump on the bandwagon when the press drops the new hit story. Do we even matter anymore? No. We never did.

Baltimore

What happened to the Baltimore in Hairspray? I see videos of the rioters and it makes me sick. I'm tired of the violence and the "black lives matter" protests. White people die, black people die, brown people die, yellow people die, purple people die, everyone dies at some point. Stop throwing bricks at windows and destroying your own town. I see women joining the riot while pushing their baby strollers down the road. Stop. You have so much ahead of you, stop doing the stupid thing in life. You're wasting it.

I'm Actually Alive

It's been over a month since I last posted and it took me a good word minutes to figure out how to post on here. All I need to say is that as the year comes to a close, don't slack off and think I'll have pity for you. I'll be too busy building homes for people and taking care of my community.

Procrastination

I don't understand why people procrastinate and brag about it. I manage to do twice the work you do while you brag about it and then tell me how you're all stressed out now. I'm not going to be here to stop you, nor will I be there to help you when you need me since you couldn't do the work in time. I don't care about you, so leave me alone.